Over the last couple of weeks, I have been feeling much better emotionally. I started working at Walmart, though my hours go to nothing the first week of January. That being said, I have been trying to find a fulltime job, and applied for one that sounds perfect for my situation. I have been praying so hard to get this position, and have asked all my friends to pray too. Today, I got word that the lady has not made a decision yet. She did say that I was still in the running, but she would not decide until next week. I found myself wanting to cry because I want this sooooo bad. So I sat and prayed on the way home : “God, You know I need this job. You know my situation. But I don’t know the other applicants’ situations either. I trust You to do what it right for all of us, including me.” I still feel all wound up over all of it, but there is a peace about it too. I have to trust that He will provide no matter what the answer is, and that there is the possibility that there is another person that may need that job. I have to admit, I look at my current work schedule and I want to cry because zero work hours does not pay the bills. I am in a constant state of giving that to God, and trying to focus on the now. That means doing my job as best I can, no matter how long I am there. I think my overall attitude during this period of waiting has changed by focusing on the other applicants. It seems weird, but there is something that feels good about praying over their situations too 
Until next time….Merry Christmas
